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overdressed for a getaway ([personal profile] thephix) wrote2014-05-02 10:31 pm

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[personal profile] bumbles 2013-07-14 08:20 am (UTC)(link)
( And he cracks a smile at that, just because it seems so ridiculous. Being Atlas just got his nose broken, for example. Atlas being the only thing in his life that makes him happy doesn't seem like enough, and he shouldn't kiss Max anymore, either. Not after all this. )

I d-don't, um.

( Know what that would be, if it's possible. He's a pathetic, miserable shit isn't he? )
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[personal profile] bumbles 2013-07-14 08:36 am (UTC)(link)
( You make me happy. Relieved and happy and verging on delight and bliss, and she can take him to the other extremes. They tear each other to shreds. )

I f-feel-- I feel b-better around you.

( But he knows it isn't mutual, and it's not her job or responsibility to make him feel better. )

I'll w-work it out. It's o-okay.
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[personal profile] bumbles 2013-07-14 09:42 am (UTC)(link)
( Careful, slowly, he pulls away. He's a sorry sight, all bruising and swelling, purple and black blossoming behind his eyes. )

M-maybe we shouldn't d-do uh, do that.

( So much for not worrying. That suggestion is being skipped and abandoned right away. )

You d-don't have t-to do stuff like that here, n-not with me. Here or at home. I w-won't let you down.

( She'll be happier, that way. He'll miss the kisses, but it might be better for both of them. )The other day--

( Things are already so confusing, complicated. )
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[personal profile] bumbles 2013-07-14 10:38 am (UTC)(link)
( that's unexpected. He shrugs, looking down and letting his hands rest on his abdomen.)

I d-dunno if there's anything t-to um, d-discuss. We b-both already knew. And-- I d-didn't expect, I knew. It's j-just what it is.

( The ice is back against his face. He doesn't like the cold but he needs it now.)

Don't worry. It d-doesn't m-matter.
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[personal profile] bumbles 2013-07-14 11:59 am (UTC)(link)
"D-deserve?" N-no one d-deserves other p-people.

( That's a fucked up thing to say. He doesn't "deserve" any person. )

I l-like-- I like k-kissing you, but-- it's n-not fair on you. When I feel d-different things.

( That just sounds unfair and messed up for both of them. )

K-kissing you is-- I like it.
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[personal profile] bumbles 2013-07-14 12:16 pm (UTC)(link)
N-no deserves this.

( Him, this mess, the things Asteria has made of him, the mess he would have been regardless. They don't deserve nightmares. ) N-not even you.

( Because she keeps him close, and surely it would have been better for her if she'd just cut him lose in the beginning, if she'd never picked up the useless vigilante who is so broken and so incapable of all things. )

M-maybe I should g-go.

( Liberate her, give her relief from all this, from him. He's taking a second, with the way his head hurts, before he forces himself to his feet. )
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[personal profile] bumbles 2013-07-14 01:27 pm (UTC)(link)
( He stands, hesitates, hangs on the edges of taking a step. )

N-no.

( Of course not. The last thing he wants to do, but simply because he does or does not want to do something doesn't make it right or wrong. It doesn't really have any bearing, when there are so many things he wants that are downright impossible, twisting around on some level. )

That d-doesn't-- p-people w-want the wrong things, sometimes. And-- m-me loving you messes things up.

( But did he ever not adore her? Was it like this from the beginning, some infatuation, or was there some merit to it? )

W-what do you w-want?
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[personal profile] bumbles 2013-07-14 01:57 pm (UTC)(link)
( Why is this difficult and why are they chasing themselves around in circles? Or is it just him, dragging her into this over and over?

What he wants to do is lean against her and wrap her up in a hug, but that wouldn't help the situation. )


Really?

( Or just because she thinks it's what he wants to hear? To spare his feelings, to keep herself from being compromised. )
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[personal profile] bumbles 2013-07-14 02:26 pm (UTC)(link)
( Carefully, gently, he lets the back of his fingers brush against her wrist. )

I'd-- I w-want t-to stay.

( She makes him feel so, so much better. )
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[personal profile] bumbles 2013-07-14 02:44 pm (UTC)(link)
( His breath shudders, and he rests his forehead against hers. )

Okay.

( Somehow he feels like he's failed at something, but this is so much a relief, at the same time. Leaning against her he shouldn't do, but God he misses her whenever they aren't in contact. )
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[personal profile] bumbles 2013-07-14 03:03 pm (UTC)(link)
( Gently, his arms wrap around her, as well, holding at her waist before he's simply holding her close against him.

This is so difficult, but he feels so relieved, even if pressing his palms to her back seems like it's a failure.

He really wants to kiss her; maybe it's for the best his nose is broken. )


I m-might lie d-down?
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[personal profile] bumbles 2013-07-14 03:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Yep.

( He scoffs a little, laughing at himself and how ridiculous this is. He almost kisses he cheek as he pulls back; somehow, he reminds himself not to, taking a step back. )

Just-- g-gotta um, k-keep my head elevated. That'll help.

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